Wednesday, May 25, 2016

So Close

  The hump is finally, finally over, and now I wait out these last few days in a surreal excitement that makes my heart flutter and keeps me awake at night in daydreams. 
Go-time is seriously so close and my excitement levels are sky-high.  
I can't wait to see what God will do in these five weeks.
I've had incredible support here on the home front, and I'm so grateful for it.
This past Sunday my church prayed over me, and next day the drama team from school did the same.
I'm so thankful for the body of Christ that has come around me in support and encouragement - what a blessing you all are!  

God has been drilling into me the importance of counting the cost of following Him, of understanding what it means before committing to it.
Our God doesn't want half-hearted followers, am I right? 
It makes me wonder what He's preparing me for, but I know that whatever it is, the will of God is good, acceptable and perfect (Romans 12:2).  
Trips like these are often full of questions, pain, and lack of understanding of why innocent children have to suffer the way that they do.
Even the thought of it breaks my heart, and I know that seeing it first-hand it will break me apart.
But I also know that my God is bigger, and he redeems.  
Whatever He will do, it is truly good, acceptable and perfect.
And now that it's almost go-time, lets go, and see what God will do.  

Time for the real thing, y'all! 

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

South Africa - 11 days

The countdown became serious as soon as 50 days until South Africa hit.
Now we are at 11.

Oh my goodness... 

I remember coping the days into my planner, beginning at about 90.  Counting down from 60, to 45, to 30, to 20 and so on.  It was a breeze at first - quick and easy. 
Then I hit 19, 18, 17, 16, 15, 14, it became tedious, and dragged on and on.  In the back on my mind I was thinking, "I'll never make it.  There so much time."  
Time passed, and week four hit, then three, then two.

But there was still so much to do.  

Final exams, Jr/Sr, tests, soccer tournament, honors society zoo trip, etc., etc., etc.
But now, at 11 days left, most of that is over.  Exams have been exempted, tests have been taken, the soccer tournament is a thing of the past, the zoo trip is now memories and pictures... and now 12 days are left and reality has stuck.

South Africa 2k16, is almost here.  Really and truly, it is almost here.  
Wow, you guys, lets do this.
Departure in 11 days.

Thursday, March 31, 2016

2 Months, Minus 2 Days

Life has been a whirlwind for the past year.
April 2014 saw me wrapping up my sophomore year of homeschool high schooling, working part time with Dad, doing as many services projects as I could, and daydreaming about Nicaragua.  

But this year, whoa!
I'm in my last few weeks of my junior year at Trinity Christian school, and loving every minute of it. I'm as busy as I can be with homework, school, soccer, family and life, but what a joy it is.

And now, finally, I am able to share a dream that has been conspiring in me for months and is finally a reality.  
It's mission trip time again!  

The second summer hits and school gets out, I'll be boarding a plan to South Africa, and the adventure of a lifetime.  
The plane ticket has been purchased, and the excitement is building. 

2 months, minus 2 days...
here we go! 

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Start NOW.

"Start right now.  
Have a burden, a desire to reach souls. 
...Be witnessing to people.  Be out there.  
Be involved in whatever ministry you can.
Try to see souls saved now...
Too often we see people who are called to a certain country, and they say "When I get to that country, I will start being a missionary."
If the Lord has called you, it's time to start right away."
- Brent George, Missionary to Romania.

Monday, December 28, 2015

It's Going to be Ok

It will, it really will. 
I still don't understand.  I still ache to hold the sweet Ugandan babies at Amani.  
I still don't get it, but it's ok somehow...
I kept thinking of the quote that says,
"When God gives you a 'no', give Him and 'thank you'.  He was
 protecting you from less than His best." 
Thinking about that yesterday made me want to scream.  It was the absolute last thing I wanted to hear.  Reading Bible verse I usually love, hurt.  To read how God has picked us to be His people, called by His name to proclaim the gospel, only made me think of how I had claimed those promises for the Uganda trip - and all that was left of that was my broken heart.  

That was yesterday.

Today I'm ready to look up again, to decide that this isn't going to break me.
The old cliche about life being 10% what happens to you and 90% how you respond to it?  I'm beginning to realize there's some truth in that.
I want God to use this - I don't want me to hinder the Lord working this out for His glory.  
What my mom told my sobbing self yesterday, 
just has to be true.
"God must be doing something really big here.  If He wasn't, it wouldn't be hurting this badly."
Please, Lord, do something big...turn this hurt into something that can be used for you...
I don't understand...but thank you that you do.  
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